Today is 1st January 2010. happy Millennium and a Decade to everyone. :)
Hurm, this is THE LAST POST. Weird cuz i felt like i’m going to brake up with someone heh weird weird weird.. I dun even know what to write because i promised that after this last post there will be no more post. Anyhow, sacrifices is a good thing when your needs is wanted.
I AM FULLY HONEST IN WRITING THIS LAST POST.
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hurm.. do you have someone that always in your head? Someone that gave you inspiration and all.. More like adores that person wether secretly or public-ly. I bet you guys must have because its normal. That person must have someting that ‘wowed’ you. Same goes to me. I do have.
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You sometimes you wish you were them, sometimes you think you are better than them, sometimes you get this thought that they are stalking you, sometimes you tends to ‘speak to them’ in silent.. Well this is all normal. Everyone does i think becuase we are people who always wanted to be someone we wanted to be.
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2009 is my year full with journey. I can say that this year is the most TIRING YEAR among all the years. I’ve met new people, i’ve been in a situation i havent felt before, i’ve becoming someone that i wanted to be, i’m dreaming about all the weird stuff happening, i’ve met people who is much more complicated to understand and my head are exploaded facing this kind of people but it’ll get through, people who are workaholics and ignored everthing aside and much more.
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Its like, what i want i get it, until i felt i don’t want it nomore, i had enough.
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Life is easy when you choose to make it like one, you choose hard, it will be hard, choose easy it will be easy. Like the lyrics from Mr Jason Mraz;
”and it takes some words to make an action”
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These past three days, Disney Channel has played the sequence of HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL from 1 to 3. I am not a BIG FAN but i watched it and i’m not shame to admit it though most people think that HSM are lame, gay, kids, imatured and all whatever la, up to anyone who’s watching it. Yesterday,
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HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL TWO
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL THREE - SENIOR YEAR
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I dunno how to tell this but when i watched them, I tought about myself and suddenly i’m getting too emotional towards it. Im not crying the movie just makes me breathless and my heart beated fast especially when they on the stage wearing the robe and where are they heading to afterwards wow it just it!
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The song BET ON ME and IS NOW OR NEVER have brought something to me. Its like a packed of energy and spirit, passion and everything nice. The words
“The answers are all inside of me, all i gotta do is BELIEVE….BET ON ME”
”This is the last chance….history will know who we are….Last chance to make it count, its NOW OR NEVER”
have make the song more powerfull to me. I AM SO OUT OF WORDS. They gave me goosebump. Say what you want i dun care lah. ITS NOW OR NEVER!
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I would like to say something to the THREE YOU.
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FIRST YOU.
I’ve met you since the first time i’ve seen how world is all about. I know you after i know how to think. I always there for you when you’re down and you did the same. Cmon, i know you better than anyon else. Stop all those nonsence. You are who you are. Please, make it right this time. I know you as a person who always thought about others not bout yourself. This time, please be selfish abit. Its for your own good. COME ON WEH! COME ON WEH! WAKE UP!! OPEN UP YOUR EYES!! PLEASE IM BEGGING!!
Don’t think about flowers right now. Don’t pretend like you’re the colourful petals you saw on TV. ALL ARE LIES! You are not the colourful petals, you are your own colour of your own petals. BE HONEST. The Greatest has the BEST ANSWER.
YOU CAN DO IT!! THANKS FOR EVRYTHING!!
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SECOND YOU.
I’ve met someone like you for the second time. Though the first one only just a quick glance and its all disapeared. When met you, i dunno lah. Its same thing like before but I dunno who started it. You or me? I dunno who started it until we ended up like this? Hurm, for me I took all the blame where it was me. The PRAISE i gave you is something HONEST. I dunno how you interpret the praise until i get this weird, awkward, strange about you towards me.
All of sudden I felt that I STARTED IT, END IT! That is when i DARE myself to go for you. Oh, that weird, awkward, strange, like a building and UNDEFIND COLOUR said that IM THE ONE WHO INTERPRETED IT WRONG. From times to times, the weird, awkward and strange said that you interpreted it wrongly after I DARE myself to go or you. Lastly, I decided that NO ONE SHOULD INTERPRET ANYTHING, NO ONE IS RIGHT. Its like a GAME. Its good and hurts sometimes and i dunno for what reason.
BUT THIS TIME THERE WAS NO ENDING or GAME OVE. I left it hanging until now. I dunno. Sometimes I felt guily, sometimes i thought you should be guilty oh that always came into circle. I left it hanging till now. But I must say, in someway, somehow I like this game we’e playing now. :) But someway and somehow, after I got the feeling where you also invite your comrades to join this game I dunno for what reason, its affected me abit. So i tried to ask mine. I told them about the game but they said THE GAME IS LAME and INGNORE THE GAME. That is when i decided where no one should interpret anything.
Now you have WON THE FIRST BATTLE. I’m not interpret anything and the weird, awkward, strange still there but this time ITS GREEN + GREY. That was great and I think we almost REACHED THE FINISH LINE.
Play the game. NO one should interpret anything.
Have a good day, you.. :)
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THRID YOU.
I just met you. You still finding your place in my memory. You’re something new. Different from the 1st and 2nd You. You are You. The dreamland I SUPPOSED. Totally different until i can’t defind what is up between us. You sometimes CHINESE, sometimes INDIAN and sometimes MALAY. I follow the way that i dreamt about, ACT LIKE A MIRROR TO THE SURROUNDING.
I did but now i felt like WE’RE REFLECTING SOMETHING TO BE TAKEN, but WE’RE NOT SURE ABOUT OUR OWN RELFECTION.
Third you, i just met you.. I’ll wait for the consequence.. :)
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Hey, this is the last post, and I’ve said what i wanted to say. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING, TO EVERYONE, ANYPLACE, ANYWHERE. Thank you for give me your time to read my blog (i dun have phsycic power but i do have instinct).
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WISH ME LUCK.
TILL THEN.. :)
