Assalamualaikum..
WOW! exam is over? SPM is over?? I still cant believe its finally over..
Yesterday was a very historic moment.. which compliment this post, the last has been broke..It was ;
my LAST PAPER : Visual Arts and Theory,
I was the LAST PERSON to went out from examination hall,
and I was the LAST PERSON went out from the girls hostel,
and I was the LAST PERSON went out of my college..
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What a feeling.. its funny thou i felt a little awkward writing here ever since I’ve made myself promise not to blog for this year.. Proudly, i have made it.. hm, mostly my friends already have their own ‘party in Malaysia’ right after their last paper Biology/Account.. Arts student was recommended to stay until exam caused we are still having our class.. Bla bla bla and so on now i am HOME..
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Actually, i wanted to blog last night but completely out of topic.. Yeah, the day has come and load of things i wanted to do but just never know which one to start first.. I updated on FB last night but yeah mostly i was carried away by the thought of blogging.. So I’ve decided to summaries everything here and write anything that came out random..
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1) The effect of not blogging.
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I dunno how to explain but, i guess i can’t leave myself by my own.. I felt that my opinion, my thoughts, my attitude, my explanation, my words, my feeling, my inside war, outside terrorist, my emotion, my anger, my working brain, my controlling heart, the pumping lungs and everything that i had been exposed, i had been surrounded by, what i needed, what i wanted and sort of feeling was blocked by something and was not connected with each other and every ‘thing’ act their own way.. i need some way to connect them back all, to express myself in the very best pleasant way.. and the best way is to type it down.. due laziness of writing hand-edly, have struck me with no solution.. i just can help it to slow-mo by listening to my MP3.. heh, what a misery huh?
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Eventually, blogging have its magic of calming.. Certain people would go walking alone by the road, garden, beach and some even went to their heavenly place and taking pictures or even sleep.. The feeling of ‘stranger knows better’? i had no idea but i guess it just spread out all over the world and i felt like everyone is listen, understand and get the feeling of mine.. But then i was hoping, very very hoping that the misery has come to its end.. I wanted to start a new life with new feeling and with new ideas of leading my way, my life for my own good and experiencing new challenging life as a teenage girl.. :)
“i felt relieved….” ;)
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2) Life in Mara Junior Science College.
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hm….. i just wanted to say that now i know what is the meaning of the first impression is important, don’t judge a book by its cover and life is not a bed of roses.. The students there well, i must say there are many good students and many bad students.. This is where the first impression plays it role.. I dun wanna comment anything just that due to the first impression i had made, due to my judgment i had decided, due to my thought of them (the smart student) do had a brain, i was leading to become very full with frustration.. This i when i thought that i had made myself as one of the SMALL MINDED person.. This is when, where my brain keep on analyzing everyone with their attitude with explanation.. and that is:
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1. Attention seeker (+vely or -vely)
Mostly due to their weakness, they try to overcome it and do something that would hide their weakness and make it as an identity.
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2. Complex attention disorder seeker
Hm, they wanted the attention but in a complex way where finally they themselves are confused by their own searching bcuz actually they dowan to be said as one but still they are searching for it. Mostly the one with the ego?
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3. Care for ‘HOT’ness (+vely or -vely)
Hm, i must say boys or girls (lol everyone did this).. up to them what is the HOT means.. Hot in studies? Hot in walking? Hot in smiling? Hot in dressing? Hot in wealth? Hot in words? Hot in attitude? Hot in confident? Hot in socially? Hot withing the group? Hot among teachers? anything, they would definateley take a good care bout this positively or negatively…
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4. The Wannabe
Hm, they went for A then become A, then went for B then become B… They saw C then become C, they heard D then listen to D, they adores E then they wanted to be adores too.. yeah sort of..
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5. Past Time revenge
Er, mostly before this, they are not what they think they are now.. After getting what they longing for so long, then they forgetting the old them and become what they believe in for that long and start to enjoyed the new them and let go off the old them or overcome the old them with the new them.. They have been treated like one before and they wanted to feel the same feeling as the treader did to them..
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6. The Stand Out (by grouping or by self-ing? heh )
“WE ARE THE BEST” , “WE ARE THE GREATEST” , “WE ARE THE MACHOest” , “WE ARE THE UP TO DATES” , “WE ARE THE SMARTS ONE” , “WE ARE THE MOST PEOPLE LOOKING FOR” , “WE ARE WHAT YOU DON’t HAVE” , “WE ARE THE ONE WHO DARE TO DO IT” , “I AM THE ONE WHO BELIEVE” , “I AM THE ONE WHO SOMEONE WOULD DIE FOR” , “I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN” , “I AM NO ONE ELSE” , “I AM DIFFERENT” , “I WENT THERE WITH MY GF/BF” , “I AM HIS/HERS ONLY” , “LOOK AT ME, I AM NOT LIKE YOU” or anything that you think that i had left that you said..
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7. Self instinct
They know what they are doing and not going to be affected by surrounding that trying to pull them down or anything that would harm them. What they want, they get it! Positively or negatively.. They also have their own opinion and holding it tight within them..
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8. Believers
They believe in God, trying not to do any sins, trying to avoid any sins and trying to brought someone back from any sins, trying to convince people of doing goods, trying to project their believe in any ways, trying to make a different.. Tho everyone seemed ‘confused by them’ or ‘they also confused by themselves’ but they are the one who tries and the only one who dares to do it and make it happen..
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9. The Low Profile
They are the one who dowan to stand out among the rest.. who would just loving themselves and leading a normal life or certain would become passive or low self esteems and make others do the choices and they follow.. They dowan to known as ‘money maker’? They do have their own thought but they dowan to exposed because they think that they will over exposed? they lived their life happily..
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10. The not even care
They lead their life themselves, not even care what others think, not even care what to wear, not even care to put hair jell, not even care to make up, not even care to fix the scarf, not even care about others opinion, not even care about small thing, dun even care about anything.. huh?
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I hope that i have summaries everything about Lenggong here.. ;)
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Afterward plan.
Hm, not yet planned.. but im going out with my friends (Bukit Bandaraya) on Wednesday to watch Narnia.. I wanted to watch Harry Potter if sempat la or i would go speedy or any CD stores to buy movies.. Pocket full of bling-bling huh? haha
next week, im going back to my hometown, Amin getting his PMR results and me getting my feet on road because i’m taking my driving licenses next week! both kereta dan motorsikal.. Dear MINICOPPER, Dear SCOOTER, we will wait which one comes first.. haha
Well, that is it for now..
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Till then, ;)
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love, Effi..
